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Monday, April 10, 2006

"i have confidence in sunshine..."-Julie Andrews, the sound of music

spring is here, bringing all the usual things, baseball, allergies, and the need to jump off of something. jason and i are planning a pipedream of a trip to moab, i think it's too early to know if it will happen (it's quickly turning into an expensive endeavor), but it's fun to pretend.

sometimes i pretend that i'm actually an interesting person. this emotional divergance is fed by the ever growing tendency to do interesting things and be with interesting people, hoping it will rub off. i learn interesting facts and listen to interesting music (which doesn't have to be good or enjoyable, apparently, just interesting), i watch foreign films that i still don't understand, no matter what language the sub-titles are, i guess that's interesting. and when all is said and done, the only one interested in any of it is me.

i pretend that people are facsinated at my story telling, even though most of my stories never happened, they're just about me pretending to do something they might want to hear about. then they pretend to be interested the fifth time i tell it, and pretend to be surprised by the out come, like the tenth time you watched "boondock saints", you knew the cat was going to die (stephanie), and you still laugh when david della-roca asks "is it dead?" as a matter of fact, i bet you laughed that time.

but, still, it's fun to pretend. like pretending that i find the guys who robbed me (i swear i'll get over it) and getting my stuff back. i won't happen, i know it, but it's fun to pretend.

oh, well, i'll go pretend someone will read this.

have a nice day.